And then it happened- the family decided……….. now I am the guilty one. I did more damage when I found out about the affair – MY REACTION was the worst and made more damage to our marriage than his deed with his “mistress”.
Am I to blame- Am I the wrong one. What did I do so wrong except to fight for my marriage. I gave him my whole life and we did all together and was always this wonderful team, laughed together , cried together and stood together. But always when there is trouble he turns away- I have to face the music alone. Everything in his life that went wrong was my mistake – is it always like that – the blame shifting. He could never accept the accountability. am I so wrong to just ask for that and his honesty to just
asked to be loved and then get the cold shoulder to hear , you cannot leave it you will never leave it – you need help. I should have left that time, and then play the victim. He is now the victim – how in the world does it become like this now.
I am the one with the broken heart with the questions with the heart-sore, the frustration and the humiliation……but I am am the Vilan – how did he manage to manipulate this whole affair and wrongdoing of him to make me the wrong one and he is now the poor Victim……..what i miss …..I am the abuser now – he makes the stories up and yell and scream at the top of his voice so that every neighbor can hear him and then makes out as if I am the one started it. He uses the kids to manipulate ………where, when, and how did this happen. is this the work of a typical narcissist, If you read about this behavior it is absolutely scary – it is a typical NARCISSIST.
WHERE TO FROM HERE- Now I am the one crying and begging- how come……. i have to get myself together now – this is absolutely a joke,